life

i've never been a deep thinker. i often brush off things that really don't matter, or i feel shallow. but lately, everything that has been happening seems to have special meaning. i am such a late bloomer. because a lot are at stake - the most important are my kids. every action and decision i make - affects them, their future.

and the little girl is one tough cookie to handle. she just picks up everything i say and do. everything. i have to be careful not to make promises just to hush her or her kuya - cos she remembers everything. i am consciously picking the kind of words i use so that her vocabulary will be good, even consulting Miriam-Webster for correct pronunciation.

(this shows how my world really revolves around my kids - nawawala ako sa topic).

i have to admit, some decisions i made in the past were rush, anger-based, pride-based. but motherhood has taught me to be patient and humble - among other things, of course. matters that are waiting for my decisions should always be well-thought of, planned, analyzed.

is it obvious that i am uncertain? i honestly believe that i am blessed. with so much. but i can not wait for the day when all are in place.

so where am i going with this blah blah? just reminding myself to focus. with all the new things that has come our way, i should not loose focus of "that day when all are in place."